Seasons: IC Contact/Overflow

[happydreamed]

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[sangreine]

I said I didn't want to spend the time we have in mourning. I don't. I just... can't seem to stop.

[ If she were the type to be more charitable to herself she'd say that she's had a few days to get used to this and he's had however long this was brewing before he told her, but she's not that type. ]

[happydreamed]

You've hardly had any time. That isn't your fault at all.

[sangreine]

[ She nods in such a way that's it's clear she doesn't really buy that. ]

Did you know you felt this way when you asked to get married? [ He had his memories by then, right? This is her roundabout way of asking if they did the right thing. ]

[happydreamed]

Yes. I've never regretted it for a second.

[sangreine]

[ And now she's wondering why he didn't think this information was important for her to know before she agreed to a commitment that, as far as she was concerned, was for life. ]

Was it that you didn't know how to tell me beforehand?

[happydreamed]

I was afraid that you would think me heartless for killing Grandfather.

[That was, after all, the original memory that prompted this.]

[sangreine]

I understand...

[ And she does -- but. And that's got to be the biggest "but" she's ever conceived of. ]

...I think I probably had a right to know this before we got married.

I'm not saying I regret it, just... my head is spinning...

[ Her chest feels tight and everything feels far away. This isn't at all how things were supposed to go for them here. ]

[happydreamed]

You did, and I'm sorry.

[What happened to the honeymoon they had earned?]

[sangreine]

[ She's flashing back to the time she sat him down and showed him her memories before letting him agree to even call them an item, how difficult that was. But she still did it. ]

I don't think you're heartless. And I know you would never hurt me intentionally.

[ Yet he still has. She gives him a squeeze and then sits up and hangs her legs over the side of the bed. ]

I need to go. But I'll see you soon, okay?

[ For once, she doesn't wait for an answer. She just leaves. She makes sure the bedroom door is gently closed behind her before she runs out of the house. ]