Seasons: IC Contact/Overflow

[happydreamed]

"Hello, you've reached Kantera. If this is a medical emergency, please hang up and call a hospital. Otherwise, please leave your message after the tone."

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[glidinglight]

Oh, you received one of the chain letters through old-fashioned mail then?

[happydreamed]

Not exactly.

I suppose I haven't mentioned to anyone who didn't see the memory... My 'world' is originally a dream, and I am a figment of that dream, based on a real person. I know some things about 'reality' that don't match up with the world I lived in.

[glidinglight]

I see.

[ Then that probably means he doesn't have a home to go back to even if he wanted to. It's a good thing that Venti's already offered him a home. ]

That must be disconcerting.

[happydreamed]

[He sure doesn't!]

Indeed it is.

[glidinglight]

If you don't mind my asking--did you exit the dream and become corporeal before Imeeji? Or only after? If you know.

[happydreamed]

Only after. Without Imeeji, I would have ended when that dream did.

[glidinglight]

Have you had a chance to talk with anyone about it?

[happydreamed]

Saya and Yuri know.

[Although that way backdated thread with Yuri hasn't gotten very far.]

[glidinglight]

[ Someone else knowing about it is different than sorting through it. But she can't imagine that they wouldn't try to talk with him about it. ]

I'm glad you haven't been left alone with the knowledge. I hope you're aware that regardless of who or what you were before, you're as important and real as anyone else.

[happydreamed]

You're kind to say so.

[so about that]

[glidinglight]

[ sir what did you do ]

I would hope anyone would say so. It seems like the bare minimum.

[happydreamed]

[just continued thinking of himself as less than a person, no big deal]

I would hardly argue with anyone if they disagreed.

[glidinglight]

[ SIR ]

You're joking, right?

[happydreamed]

No?

[why would he be]

[glidinglight]

[ S I R ]

How can you say that? Don't you know the impact you've had on the people around you? How important you are to them?

[happydreamed]

Is that what makes a person real, the impact they've had on others?

[glidinglight]

If not that, then what do you think makes a person real?

[happydreamed]

Completeness. A personhood that can't simply be overwritten when 'tis more convenient for them not to experience or react to something.

[glidinglight]

[ Time to really challenge him on this. ]

And what makes a person complete? I don't remember ever feeling that way. And all of us had our memories erased and new experiences overwriting our blank slates in Imeeji. Does that mean none of us are real people?

[happydreamed]

You always had thoughts and feelings. Even the producers were not able to simply shut our minds off with the flick of a switch. That is what I mean, more than memory.

[glidinglight]

And can you ever remember a time when you had no thoughts or feelings?

[happydreamed]

Yes. I can.

[glidinglight]

Details or it didn't happen.

tw: unreality

[happydreamed]

If we were in Tokyo-F still, I could simply show you on my phone. As it is, I have to describe it.

Russell took myself and two others into a part of the dream that was 'unregulated'. Rather than appearing as a coherent scene, it was an endless void with a mishmash of objects and textures from other parts of the dream, some changing randomly from one thing to another.

I fought the monsters that appeared there, but in my head there were no thoughts and no feelings. It would have been inconvenient to the purposes of the dream for me to react to the clear break of reality in front of me, so I simply did not.

Re: tw: unreality

[glidinglight]

[ Yeah sometimes the inability to just straight up share memoires anymore can be a hindrance. ]

Your whole reality was distorted and unstable. Pure chaos. You can't say for sure that another person wouldn't enter a similar state because that's not a replicable scenario.